I'm not sure if this is related to trying again after two losses or due to the loss being later the second time around and having additional health conditions surrounding it, but I am finding TTCAL a lot different this time around. I feel more pressure, which I guess could also be not TTCAL related but more related to the fact it has been over a year since we started trying.
Right now I am affectionately in the period known as the two week wait before you can test to see if it is positive or not. I find myself overanalyzing ever symptom and of course early pregnancy symptoms are the same as bad PMS in most cases. I feel like this cycle I've analyzed more than the previous four, but it could just be that I don't remember since it was July last time we were actively trying.
I am trying my hardest not to get my hopes up and genuinely believe my period is going to come full force next week. Despite this I think it is going to be a very emotional time when it happens because this is my last chance to be a mom before 2012 is over. Somebody made a passing comment recently that maybe if it doesn't happen this cycle that our first living children will have their own year, which is a very good point. I guess I'll find out in the next few days, but for now I just wanted to jot down how I am feeling.
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