My husband and I started trying in February. I was cautiously excited on May 31st when I tested faintly positive on a home pregnancy test. Unfortunately the test never got stronger and a few days later at 4 weeks, 6 days I started to miscarry. We were given no medical reason to wait and therefore we didn't take a break.
I was thrilled but nervous when I tested on July 9th and found out that we were expecting again. I was feeling hopeful with a solid line and a digital pregnancy test showing positive this time. We told my in-laws at six weeks because we don't get to see them too often and wanted to tell them in person. That very same day I started spotting.
I was scared knowing there was nothing I could do, and I was worried that something was wrong with me as it was around the same time week-wise as my previous loss. I tried to stay hopeful as it continued through the weekend. Monday I called the OB and they wanted to do an ultrasound the next day. Betas were drawn and the ultrasound saw a gestational sac. The measurement was about a week to a week and a half behind, but no other indication of a miscarriage was seen. Betas were drawn 2 days later indicating that they were doubling, so the Dr. felt everything was good. I was put on progesterone for the spotting and that worked. I needed a follow-up ultrasound the next week.
That ultrasound ended up being the heartbreaker. There was nothing there including the gestational sac from the week before. The Dr. said I'm sorry, but you are going to miscarry. They did bloodwork again at this point, and the results showed that it was higher, but it was not doubling normally. Because the numbers may have gone up prior to the miscarriage they had me do more bloodwork but it went up again.
At my one week follow-up they did another ultrasound and decide that a D&C was needed due to there being so much tissue. It is scheduled for the next day. The D&C was a scary process, but went easier than the anticipation portion. I was supposed to have a follow-up two and a half weeks later, but the office called after a week and a half and said they got the pathology report back and needed to see me sooner. This was one of the lower moments for me.
I kept trying to reassure myself that maybe they just got the results earlier than expected, surely it is nothing. Deep down though I was worried. I had seen information on molar pregnancy before and it was my deepest fear going into the appointment. Well my worst fear was confirmed when I got there. I will get into what the diagnosis means for those who don't know later. For now, I will say that some extra tests were done including another ultrasound and a chest x-ray, which both came back normal. My HCG levels finally hit negative on 9/29. Now I am in the waiting game until it is safe to attempt to try again.
