Happy Mother's Day

Somebody shared this on a loss board that I frequent, and I wanted to share.

Happy Mother's Day to those who have children in their arms, to those who have lost children, to those that long to be a mother, to expectant mothers to and all the mothers in heaven!!! ♥

Today my husband picked me some forget-me-nots that escaped onto our lawn from the neighbor's garden before he mowed them over. I know it was a simple gesture for him, but it meant a lot to me today. I thought the love vases were perfect for them. On the back they say "A heart that loves is always in bloom". I also picked one of the Daffodils I had planted as they are the March birth flower. I only wish the Irises I have were in bloom. The second picture is dark, but I'm including it because it shows the piano my brother delivered for my birthday. I can't wait until I finish decorating that room, I think it will be one of my favorites.

End of cycle two

I realized I have been missing in action over here, but I have been meaning to write so I would remember how I was feeling at this point. Cycle number two almost didn't happen yet due to a recurrence of arm pain that I had been do the Dr. for a few months ago. I realized at that point how far I had actually come. There wasn't an extreme sadness or an anxiousness to be pregnant anymore. That is not to say I don't want to be pregnant and have a healthy little one, but I am more accepting of the fact it may take awhile. In other words more how I felt before the first m/c and having to avoid so long when I was so anxious to be trying.

In the end the arm pain let up right before my fertile window so it was full speed ahead. Unfortunately today I found out that it wasn't the lucky one. I'm slightly bummed about this but really doing fine. I also think I am finally not feeling all "stabby" when looking at pictures of the baby that was due right in between my two EDD.