Oh Happy Day...

So in a complete turn around from yesterday my brother just made my day! He wanted to know what I am doing during his spring break in a couple weeks, which is right before my birthday. The answer is hanging out with him and getting some burly guys to help move my piano into my house! It belonged to my grandmother and her mother before that. My parents have had the piano at there house for I can't even remember how long but have had trouble getting it out here. My brother recently got a new truck, which means he can now transport it. It also means I get to spend some time with him and he finally gets to see my space. I am super excited just in case you can't tell from the exclamation marks!

Sad day

I'm glad I had today off from work as I have been a bum all day and feeling really emotional after getting my period today. I never really realized how hard it would be to get my first one since we have been TTC again after both losses. I just feel I should have a little one in my arms and not an empty heart. I also have to find out some more information about a familial health concern that might cause me to TTA again. This is so not where I want to be right now...

Sunday Silliness

Happy Easter! Hope this doesn't offend anybody. Check the egg on the right. It is the Gangsta egg circa 2006.

Trying to conceive after a loss (TTCAL)

I'm not sure if this is related to trying again after two losses or due to the loss being later the second time around and having additional health conditions surrounding it, but I am finding TTCAL a lot different this time around. I feel more pressure, which I guess could also be not TTCAL related but more related to the fact it has been over a year since we started trying.

Right now I am affectionately in the period known as the two week wait before you can test to see if it is positive or not. I find myself overanalyzing ever symptom and of course early pregnancy symptoms are the same as bad PMS in most cases. I feel like this cycle I've analyzed more than the previous four, but it could just be that I don't remember since it was July last time we were actively trying.

I am trying my hardest not to get my hopes up and genuinely believe my period is going to come full force next week. Despite this I think it is going to be a very emotional time when it happens because this is my last chance to be a mom before 2012 is over. Somebody made a passing comment recently that maybe if it doesn't happen this cycle that our first living children will have their own year, which is a very good point. I guess I'll find out in the next few days, but for now I just wanted to jot down how I am feeling.