Sunday Silliness

I love this dog...he has a double dose for you today.

This is him as my workout buddy:

 I'll just find a sunny spot and lay down to watch you.

 Watching you is a lot of work; my eyes are getting heavy

 Now that I've had my nap let's do some gymnastics

 And a cool down stretch

This is how I found him after a shower. Life is good in the hood after all (he is in the hood of my jacket in case it is hard to tell.

Slight lament about medical knowledge

At times I get so sick of the "medical" community not understanding molar pregnancy leading to me having to educate. The biggest example of this is for my "battle" with the group insurance company my company uses for short-term disability. I use battle loosely as it was really more of an inconvenience and time waste if anything. They didn't give me a hassle when I told them they had inaccurate information. It was handled in two weeks with two letters written and faxed, but it is the principle of the matter.

As is standard when you sign up for a new policy the ask questions, one of which asks about surgeries. I had to put the D&C there as it is considered one. Now, I know that this is not medical professionals necessarily reviewing this, but I would expect them to have an idea that a D&C prevents a pregnancy from continuing. Imagine my dismay when I found out that the insurance company denied by plan as I was "currently pregnant".

The only reason I can think of is that there is the word pregnancy in "molar pregnancy". Now MP was only written as a diagnosis under the results of the D&C surgery column, which as I state before precludes continued pregnancy. It just seems like common sense to me.

I also had a random experience when I had to get x-rays due to the diagnosis. The technician did a quick Google search. Seriously, he told me this and then proceeded to ask me if I could explain better as well as whether I was pregnant. Mind you this was probably less than an hour after finding out it was molar and two weeks out from D&C so I was still slightly emotional (though mostly numb) about the whole thing.

I don't mind most other questions from everybody else though it is hard to explain sometimes. It is also hard when people ask if that means there really wasn't a baby. I don't know why they ask, but I have trouble as it really is philosophical question. There never was or would have been a fetus with my MP, but I still had all the hopes and feelings (physically and emotionally) of early pregnancy. I guess the moral of the story is think before you speak.

Oh and another good thing about the weekend

Our second bathroom is up and running again. We had the bathroom put in at the end of July. In fact we bought low-VOC paint the day before we found out about the second m/c. Due to some shower design flaws we had a leak issue and had been unable to use if for several months. J is especially happy to have it back. Without further ado, I present the "new" bathroom.

Before: It was an "attic" storage space on the same level as the upstairs (our house is a Cape). In case you can't tell that is a classy cardboard wall.

After:

We lost some space due to building regulations as it was considered new construction rather than renovating an existing space. Basically the ceiling had to be at least a certain height at all points so there is practically nothing behind this well, but we did get a nice built-in storage space.

 This one is the best I could get of the light, which is also a ceiling fan.

Life is good...

So although I didn't get a long weekend unlike some people, it was still a nice and relaxing weekend. There were a lot of things to make me happy. A couple of these aren't good picture quality, but I never professed to be a good photographer and they give you an idea. Not all of them are from this weekend.

Sunshine on my shoulders...while running:

The love of my life (cheesy I know):

Now

And Then (a little over 2 years before we started dating...the first pic of us together)

The excitement of the little one (here he is wanting to play):

 

The persistance of the old one...who gets up to greet me even if it means the little one will steal his bed:

 

But most of all cuddles:

Sunday Silliness

I don't know what is up with the pup lately, but the past couple days instead of rushing down into the yard he keeps doing this as well as running around the porch sniffing especially in this one corner. I really don't know what he is looking at unless he is saying hi to the spiders.

Happy Birthday

Today was my estimated delivery date for my first pregnancy. I took the day off from work since the other week I had a random regression of grumpiness that I thought was related to the loss. I was pleasantly surprised that today was refreshingly not bad. While, not bad other than the fact I got a nasty hormonal headache yesterday and got to deal with the remnants of a headache and stomach upset. Due to some irritating insurance issues that are a whole other post, I ended up visiting my husband at work for lunch, which was nice.

I choose to believe in signs, and I got one yesterday. So, back in the beginning of Oct. I was on hold with the Dr. office trying to schedule appointments. I usually go outside to do this as I don't get cell phone reception in the building and I don't like calling with the nosy people in the pod. While I was outside and on hold forever I came upon some clovers and found two separate 4-leaf clovers.

I stuck them in my desk in a book where they have been for 4 months. From time to time I've remembered them (when I was at home), but kept forgetting to bring them home and I haven't needed the book for anything. Yesterday, one fell out onto my desk. Also, my second EDD was St. Patrick's day. Weird little signs if you ask me.

I really just took time to slow down and be present today, which was really a nice gift to me. I am fairly certain that my husband has no clue what today is and that is okay with me. I know he wasn’t sure why I took off work other than that I have a ton of days off. After today being so nice though, I may have to make it a yearly tradition for awhile.

Today is also DH’s grandmother’s birthday. From everything I’ve heard she was an amazing woman. I did get to see a little bit of her spunky side, but this was only when I was first dating J. Even then it was nothing compared to her former self as she had Alzheimer’s for several years before I met her. This is her second birthday not on earth. Happy Birthday Marie, I hope you are doing well up above with your lost loved one. I would like to imagine our lost little one up there celebrating with his/her great grandmother.

Also, thinking of another friend today. Happy birthday to Steph! I can’t leave her out of the birthday goodness.

 

Sunday Silliness

While looking across old pictures I found this, and figured maybe I'd put up something other than the pup for once.

Uncle Dick (1932-2012)

So I haven't posted anything recently because I really haven't had much to say and because I was out of town for a funeral. I don't know what to say about my uncle, but I felt it was right to say something. Uncle Dick was a loving man with a strong sense of faith that helped him get through many health issues. He passed away last Thursday with his wife of 55 years by his side. Just another reminder that life is short and to enjoy the here and now.